Incremental Self-Improvement

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Rome wasn’t built in a day, and good habits take more than a week to develop.

I worked hard this week: worked out four of the five days I intended to, got my editing binder updated, so that now I can read through the rest of the portion of To Save What’s Lost that I have printed out, and spent some good time doing a surprising amount of housework. It’s not getting things done, though, it’s keeping up with them.  So, this week I have a tall order ahead of me.

On Wednesday, the general manager of my restaurant sat me down and told me point blank that they’re interested in moving me into a managerial position.  I was hesitant at first; I’ve wanted to leave the restaurant industry for about five years now.  But none of my other endeavors have really gained enough ground to even look like they might supplant restaurant work anytime soon. Therefore, by Friday I had decided to take them up on their offer. It’s time for me to take the opportunity to achieve financial stability when it’s offered, rather than putting my eggs in the internet content basket. Who knows? Perhaps it’ll be easier to make content when you’re not relying on it to grow into money.

The good news is that more responsibility at the restaurant will not translate into less time for creation. I have the opportunity to pretty much transition to whatever schedule I want.  It’s looking like I’ll be able to resume streaming for long sessions on Sundays once the transition is complete, and neither location is open on Mondays, so my laundry/writing ritual can remain intact. I’m hoping that I will be able to make a satisfactory amount of money working the same amount that I have been, but even if it’s not enough, the jump in income should be drastic enough that I will only have to add a shift or two each week to get myself there.

Discipline’s difficult when life changes drastically. The most frustrating thing about that is the fact that the things I want to do with my life are all driven exclusively by me. I’ve been trapped for a lot of years by the struggle of not making money quickly enough to support spending time doing the things I really want to. In retrospect, the answer was probably always getting myself to a safe place financially, then transitioning to doing as much art as I can. Hindsight is, of course, 20-20, and there’s never any sense in spending time wishing we could change the past. Brody, from SSX Tricky, would sometimes say, “The past is gone; now is all there is.” after a bad fall.  And you know what? He’s right. All we can do is the best we can with what we have right now, so that’s exactly what I’m gong to do.  I don’t know just what everything will look like yet, but I’m fine with that. I’ll build my creative schedule around my work schedule, and we’ll go from there. The future is bright, friends; I’ll see you there.


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